When you are about to pack up your life and take off for who knows how long, life suddenly seems to be something you handle with care. I seem to wake up every morning wondering what new adventure will come my way and what memories I will create to take with me when I'm homesick. I guess I am just evaluating life a little too much. I keep thinking a thousand things such as ... Am I running away because I haven't found what I'm looking for here? Am I going to come back in a year, or will I fall in love with the world? What will I do on my vacations? Will I travel all over Europe to make up for the fact that this will be my first Christmas without my family? God, I sound as though I am homesick all ready and here I am still in Colorado. I wish I could stop my constant thinking already.
Lately I have had severe trouble sleeping. Reasons?? One is probably the creepy house I live in, true. But the significant reason? I think that even though I act as though I am not nervous, my subconcious is taking over at night and freaking out. Its making me have tons of crazy dreams and night terrors. I think its a sign that I need to somehow center myself and just calm down. Or that I'm not doing enough thinking in the daytime. Should I listen? Probably, but I refuse to spend my next month acting as though I'm already gone.
When it comes down to it, I thought that keeping myself extremely busy would be a way for me to avoid all the thinking, but here it is bombarding me in my sleep and when I'm awake. I keep trying to tell myself... Just let it all happen. Thats what life is. Hopefully my mind will start listening to me when I fall asleep. If not I'm going to be one extremely tired American arriving in my new life.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
The summer TODO list??? Preparation Begins
It's official. I just had my plane ticket booked for August 14th. And even though that seems rather far away, I am realizing how fast this summer is going to fly by. It is already June and everyday is packed full of work and other activities that ensure that I am not home before 9 at night. I know that every summer is busy, but I think that since I have so much to do, time has conspired against me to go even faster.
I got the list of texts and curriculum that I will be working with next year and let's just say I have a lot of reading to do! Here are some of the titles:
1. Catcher in the Rye (definitely one of my least favorite books so I might have to read it again this summer to see if there is anything new and endearing that I can possibly find about Holden Caulfield and his whiny narrative)
2. The Great Gatsby - one of my favs and thankfully I have read this enough to reenact Daisy running Myrtle over with the car (which we actually did in E402 the movie is on youtube and is hilarious)
3. The Odyssey- this is for my 11th grade class which is amazing since I just taught it this last semester to my freshmen!
4. Macbeth- read it in Shakespeare I but don't remember much so this is on the todo list
5. Antigone- My summer will be dedicated to the old and classic apparently!
6. The Stranger- haven't read, I know it's a crime, but the worse crime??? THE LIBRARY DOESN"T EVEN OWN IT
7. The Story of Zahra- haven't even heard of it so Amazon here I come
8. Othello- Awesome
9. Heart of Darkness
10. Leo Africanus- another title I haven't even heard of.
11. The Handmaid's Tale
12. Catch 22- I'm excited to read this one!
13. The Things They Carried- I have been waiting to have time to read this for forever, so there is no better time than the present!
This is only part of my todo this summer! I am also working with my trusty sidekick named Rosetta Stone to learn French and it is going to take me all summer. It's a really cool program, I just don't really have the time so I usually end up learning my sentences such as "un garcon mange une pomme" (The boy eats the apple) at 10 o clock at night.
I just need to remember this: Who knows when, or if I will ever have a summer in Fort Collins again. Therefore, I need to get my obligations done of course, but also I need to enjoy the beautiful weather and company of my friends. I don't want to look back and realize that I sat inside talking to a computer instead of having an awesome summer creating great memories with everyone. So my number 1 on todo list??? Love the life I am living right now, because there will be plenty of time to practice my French while sitting in cafes drinking "du cafe" in Casablanca, and plenty of time to read while flying there!
I got the list of texts and curriculum that I will be working with next year and let's just say I have a lot of reading to do! Here are some of the titles:
1. Catcher in the Rye (definitely one of my least favorite books so I might have to read it again this summer to see if there is anything new and endearing that I can possibly find about Holden Caulfield and his whiny narrative)
2. The Great Gatsby - one of my favs and thankfully I have read this enough to reenact Daisy running Myrtle over with the car (which we actually did in E402 the movie is on youtube and is hilarious)
3. The Odyssey- this is for my 11th grade class which is amazing since I just taught it this last semester to my freshmen!
4. Macbeth- read it in Shakespeare I but don't remember much so this is on the todo list
5. Antigone- My summer will be dedicated to the old and classic apparently!
6. The Stranger- haven't read, I know it's a crime, but the worse crime??? THE LIBRARY DOESN"T EVEN OWN IT
7. The Story of Zahra- haven't even heard of it so Amazon here I come
8. Othello- Awesome
9. Heart of Darkness
10. Leo Africanus- another title I haven't even heard of.
11. The Handmaid's Tale
12. Catch 22- I'm excited to read this one!
13. The Things They Carried- I have been waiting to have time to read this for forever, so there is no better time than the present!
This is only part of my todo this summer! I am also working with my trusty sidekick named Rosetta Stone to learn French and it is going to take me all summer. It's a really cool program, I just don't really have the time so I usually end up learning my sentences such as "un garcon mange une pomme" (The boy eats the apple) at 10 o clock at night.
I just need to remember this: Who knows when, or if I will ever have a summer in Fort Collins again. Therefore, I need to get my obligations done of course, but also I need to enjoy the beautiful weather and company of my friends. I don't want to look back and realize that I sat inside talking to a computer instead of having an awesome summer creating great memories with everyone. So my number 1 on todo list??? Love the life I am living right now, because there will be plenty of time to practice my French while sitting in cafes drinking "du cafe" in Casablanca, and plenty of time to read while flying there!
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