So I am currently in the process of trying to put all of my stuff away from moving home from Fort Collins... just so I can pack some of it up again in a week. Time is flying by, and I can't decide whether I wish it would slow down or speed up. I got to say goodbye to all of my friends this last weekend, and I am so blessed to have them all in my life and to come wish me luck on the next part of it. As I hung out with friends from high school, freshman year of college through now, it made me wonder about life and how it seems that we fade in and out of people's lives. For instance, I am only friends with a select few people from high school, even though I seem to remember making lots of vain promises of staying close. Attribute this to the changes we have all gone through, some for the good, some bad; yet I can't help wondering if it is typical. Will I always have a different group of friends while others fade out? I hope not. My fear in moving away is that I won't be a factor in my friends lives anymore, that I will fade as a ghost from the past.
I know there will always be certain people that will stay in my life, even if simply through email. They are the ones that deal with my problems and listen to my stressed ranting, yet stick around. It's amazing how when you change as a person, so few people stay constant in your life. I know that I will make new friends, who I will probably be very close with as you tend to be when away from everything you know.
All I do know is that I have had some amazing people attribute to the person I am so far. Hanging out with some of them on Friday just gave me a chance to reflect on all the amazing times and memories. It seems just yesterday that I was hanging out on a soccer field, joking around with Kristen and Katie about our own personal jokes. Or just yesterday that I moved into my dorm at CSU and got to know the great girls that would be my friends through college. Or starting my job at Miramont and meeting the crazy girls who are my closest friends. I know that in ten years, I will look back on my leaving for Morocco as a memory, whether I am living somewhere else or back here in CO.
Yes, I am blessed in the friends I have. I am so excited to see where their lives take them just as mine is taking my thousands of miles away. I know that they could be so many things; a fashion consultant, an amazing teacher, nutritionist, genetic counselor, business owner, etc. They will all find their passion as I have mine, and I know that I will continue to be proud of them.
Friends make it hard to say goodbye, but I know that we will still have our memories, as well as new ones to come.
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